Friday, July 18, 2003

 
okay, so ASB camp was soo super fun. i loved almost everything about it. swimming in the rain with lightning, rock climbing, canoe racing, playing volleyball, spirit events, shoot...even the long meetings about homecoming, freshman orientation, and master calender planning was pretty alright...watching austin powers, playing mafia, late night girl talk... it was great. i'm going to miss it so much though. the term "seniors" kept coming up the whole time though. it sounds so funny to actually be associated with that word. i told someone i didn't wanna leave high school, cuz high school (for me) has been great. i'm a "high school" type of person. i like the bonding with friends and teachers that you see on a REGULAR basis...not the..."acquaintance" type of relationship that college people say that you find once you get to college. but...maybe i'll change my mind...i haven't gotten there yet..so we'll see....depends on whether or not i go to college. anyways..i love my group. tomorrow is ASB OLD vs. ASB NEW...i'm so excited.

next order of business on the agenda: VOLLEYBALL
...i wanna play...
...i miss it...
...regretting many things...

FOOOOOD...i'm so hungry..my family is in San Diego, so I'm quite home alone until midnight...sitting..bored..watching tv..etc...eating s'mores... wow...i have the feeling like i should be doing homework...but i'm not... eh. screw it. whatelse is there to say? Ooh yeah..i have this big craving for korean food..mMmmMmmmmmmMmm..... :D

KOOBBEE.... dude. he's innocent. what's this girl trying to pull off...she wants MONEY...shoot..if i were her, i would NOT be complaining....NOT AT ALL.. ;D shoot.. i'd be his mistress anyday..anytime he comes to colorodo, i'll be there.. hahaha ... JK ..but yeah... whatever he's done.. hopefully he'll be forgiven... people should forgive him... i did. :D haha..man..u know all this talk is all fun and games. i just think he's so hot...SOOoOoOo HOT!!! Ooh, he's bald. anyways... :D i think that's it for now. i'd like to say..


HELLO to everyone!! :D bYEEe! peace out homies.
Diane posted this at 7:40 PM.

Tuesday, July 15, 2003

 
lately, i've been feeling like sh*t. this past weekend was so fun though, i chilled with my cousins..we went to the San Diego zoo. monkeys that scratch that lie down and scratch their balls right in front of you are quite hilarious if you ask me. haha..good times. but when i got home from SD, wow, i felt soo sick. and i've been feeling sick for a while since then. so if ur wondering why i'm quiet or not acting the same, that's probably why. i'm so sorry if i like b*tch 24/7 during asb meetings. i really don't mean to, and i just want like..everyone to respect each other. my bad. i really am sorry. it's just..kinda hard. i hope you understand. my attitude is like..out of whack. along with feeling sick, i really think it's the sun. whatever. anyways...i feel so stressed out..like..VERY VERY..i think my body just wants to give up. anyways, on a brighter note, i'm really excited about camp though..planning homecoming and the whole year and stuff. i hope you guys are excited too. i feel like i have so much stuff to do for camp still..i feel behind, which is a very bad sign. so tonight..imma stay up for a while and..try to clear my mind and work everything out. along with that, summer school is tough. it's too much for me right now..too much reading, too much thinking ,too much time. i have to take art though, or i won't graduate. or go to college for that matter. college...eww. hmm... AP scores are coming in soon..i bet i didn't pass ANY of them.. college apps are later in the year..probably won't get in anywhere. hmm..i know all of this sounds familiar to some of you guys. i ALWAYS b*tch about college to everyone. seriously, i'm so disappointed in myself. anyways..enough of that... enough bad stuff for now.. let's move on to the good stuff... i made something..it's kinda cool..well, i think it is. hmmM..i'm just kind of afraid it might be a failure. i can't talk too much about it right now, but... ;D yeah. we'll see. uhMM..thank you NINA for IMing me...it's always nice to talk to old friends that you haven't seen or talked to in like..FOREVER.. :D thank you daniel for taking me to weinersnitzel..corn dogs..gotta love them. ur like..my bestest buddy in the whole wide world! ey...you gotta give it up okay? that's 22 SECONDS YOU COULD BE SPENDING WITH ME! ;D hehe. hmMm..thanks Howard for taking me like..EVERYWHERE. :D there's a lot of stuff i want to talk about..and i guess i will. i really LOVE seeing like..my older buddies from school. makes me happy when old ppl visit us at school. :) i miss everyone like crazy. i really need money to buy something. like..fast. shoot, and i tried saving....didn't quite reach my goal yet. :( ..job-wise, i don't have one, but i'm planning on working at the end of august and into the school year. as for volleyball, I LOVE PLAYING SO MUCH! i miss playing for school and stuff..miss the girls..miss my team...miss the competition...man..i love it! but..yeah..u know i'll always be here to support you girls right?! don't doubt that. :) i've had this really bad craving to go swimming..and seriously, i was down right ready to go swimming by myself in the middle of the night. it's so frikken hot. ugh! i have so much to do, and i think i'm just paranoid. i feel like i want to just sit and hide in my closet and cry. the stupid thing is...is that..i don't even know what the heck is going on! like.. u'll ask me why i want to cry..and honestly, i won't have an answer...because i just..TRULY dont know why. i'd like to say everything is okay... because it is. everytime i feel like this..i always say to myself that it COULD BE WORSE. because it could...and i should be thankful. i really should. and i am. so for now, i'm gonna quit complaining. i'm really looking forward to senior year....the first day of school, the late nights, chilling with friends, the events, MUN trip east coast, the dances (if i go..lol..quite..doubtful)....graduation (not that i'm wanting to get this over with)... everything..it's not..the actual event i guess...it's more like..i'm excited to share all these things and memories with my friends. it's the people. :D hmM...okay..i think this is getting kinda long, and i frikken have to study for my exam. so for now, i'm ouuut and abbouuuttt...good night, sweet dreams. ;D bye.

ps, im really freakin pist off right now because i wrote this long*Ss blog, and it got cut off in the beginning.


Diane posted this at 12:20 AM.

 
t camp though..planning homecoming and the whole year and stuff. i hope you guys are excited too. i feel like i have so much stuff to do for camp still..i feel behind, which is a very bad sign. so tonight..imma stay up for a while and..try to clear my mind and work everything out. along with that, summer school is tough. it's too much for me right now..too much reading, too much thinking ,too much time. i have to take art though, or i won't graduate. or go to college for that matter. college...eww. hmm... AP scores are coming in soon..i bet i didn't pass ANY of them.. college apps are later in the year..probably won't get in anywhere. hmm..i know all of this sounds familiar to some of you guys. i ALWAYS b*tch about college to everyone. seriously, i'm so disappointed in myself. anyways..enough of that... enough bad stuff for now.. let's move on to the good stuff... i made something..it's kinda cool..well, i think it is. hmmM..i'm just kind of afraid it might be a failure. i can't talk too much about it right now, but... ;D yeah. we'll see. uhMM..thank you NINA for IMing me...it's always nice to talk to old friends that you haven't seen or talked to in like..FOREVER.. :D thank you daniel for taking me to weinersnitzel..corn dogs..gotta love them. ur like..my bestest buddy in the whole wide world! ey...you gotta give it up okay? that's 22 SECONDS YOU COULD BE SPENDING WITH ME! ;D hehe. hmMm..thanks Howard for taking me like..EVERYWHERE. :D there's a lot of stuff i want to talk about..and i guess i will. i really LOVE seeing like..my older buddies from school. makes me happy when old ppl visit us at school. :) i miss everyone like crazy. i really need money to buy something. like..fast. shoot, and i tried saving....didn't quite reach my goal yet. :( ..job-wise, i don't have one, but i'm planning on working at the end of august and into the school year. as for volleyball, I LOVE PLAYING SO MUCH! i mis60764
s playing for school and stuff..miss the girls..miss my team...miss the competition...man..i love it! but..yeah..u know i'll always be here to support you girls right?! don't doubt that. :) i've had this really bad craving to go swimming..and seriously, i was down right ready to go swimming by myself in the middle of the night. it's so frikken hot. ugh! i have so much to do, and i think i'm just paranoid. i feel like i want to just sit and hide in my closet and cry. the stupid thing is...is that..i don't even know what the heck is going on! like.. u'll ask me why i want to cry..and honestly, i won't have an answer...because i just..TRULY dont know why. i'd like to say everything is okay... because it is. everytime i feel like this..i always say to myself that it COULD BE WORSE. because it could...and i should be thankful. i really should. and i am. so for now, i'm gonna quit complaining. i'm really looking forward to senior year....the first day of school, the late nights, chilling with friends, the events, MUN trip east coast, the dances (if i go..lol..quite..doubtful)....graduation (not that i'm wanting to get this over with)... everything..it's not..the actual event i guess...it's more like..i'm excited to share all these things and memories with my friends. it's the people. :D hmM...okay..i think this is getting kinda long, and i frikken have to study for my exam. so for now, i'm ouuut and abbouuuttt...good night, sweet dreams. ;D bye.


Diane posted this at 12:20 AM.

Sunday, June 08, 2003

 
last night, i went to bed, thinking... (not in a sad, depressing way, like a lot of ppl seem to be doing these days), but thinking good thoughts about things. it's been real calm this past week, and i like the feeling. but then again, i'm sort of freaked out by how everything's going...it's never been this great before. :D i guess that's a good thing right? anyways, i have lots to say. it's been a long while since i've written, so here i go:

1. lakers- poor kobe. dude. i still love them. I SAY THIS NOW BECAUSE I REALLY THINK IT'LL HAPPEN: for some reason, i think kobe will get MVP next year. mark my words. ;D anyways, them not winning this year hasn't changed much. i still like them. :D

2. prom- i've never been so amazed in my life. i hope all of you guys had fun, cuz it was really fun putting prom on this year. i had fun. everyone had fun. everything was great. and the macs liked it.. ;D and that makes me happy.

3. my birthday (and everyone else's)- it seems like everyone's birthday is this month! crRaaaAzy! josie, me, pamela, jessica, butter, nisha, jason d, and i'm sure there's much much more. well, first of all, i just wanted to say thanks to everyone who made my day so special (well, you all sort of make everyday special for me)..but thank you. really. :D i really very much appreciate everything. this year, was great...because i got to spend a lot of it with all of you, and it's you guys that make me feel like i dunno...special? hehe. i guess that's the word. but anyways, thank you to my family and friends, and even teachers (haha).




it's the last thing i see before i go to bed, and the first thing i see when i wake up. thank you. :D really... thank you.
Diane posted this at 5:25 PM.

Sunday, May 18, 2003

 
if i told anyone what was going on in my head, they'd think i was crazy. if i told anyone what i know to be true, i think they'd laugh. but i know...i just know. it's kinda tough to understand. cuz...yeah..it just is. its one of those things that no one but myself would understand. it just is.
Diane posted this at 10:27 PM.

Friday, April 18, 2003

 
how do i know this spring break is gonna be whack? hMm..well, first..i dont have a car. second, i dont have anywhere to go. third, i have a grip of homework and projects, i have to study for AP tests, i have Junior Miss practice...and my song isn't coming together all too great..i'm not happy with it...and it's pissing me off. hmMM.. whatelse? i'm going to vegas..which is alright.. i haven't gone on a vacation not related to school in a looong..very very long time. it's not like i could gamble though, so i guess that leaves me and the arcade...just me and it. lol. i dont even think my brother's going..i think he has school, so bleh...how frikken lonely. anyways, i'm leaving sunday morning after Easter Mass at 6:45..and then...i'm coming back around lunch time i believe on Monday, so it's not too long. i'd like to do a few things over break...but i dont think that'll happen. i almost know for sure it won't.. so..yeah...that is why i know my spring break is gonna suck!

so anyways, last night, i fell asleep with my kneepads on..haha.. that was like 7:30pm...i woke up at 10:30pm..went back to sleep like 10 minutes later..woke up at 7:30am..so that was like..what? about 12 hours... pretty good ey? this morning, i woke up and dropped off esther's shoes at her house..all up in my PJs, messy hair and everything..oh well.. hmm..and then i came home, watched sweet november.. oh yes..i laughed, cried, etc. all by myself..fun times..haha that's just weird me. hMm..then i sat on my computer and stared at the screen..doing absolutely nothing. everyone's still sleeping. and whatelse..hmM..oh i sat in my chair, closed my eyes, and listened to music... trying to get ideas for my song. then i sat at my piano, and played my heart out..and what did i get? a song, i'm not even happy with. ugh. so i guess i'll be working more on that. and so i'm singing in the shower..and all of a sudden water gets in my mouth..and i start choking...fun times. so now my throat's kinda iffy and yucky. whatever...i'll stick to piano. and that leads me to..now. and now is now, and i'm really bored..just wasting time, when i know i could be doing something productive, but oh well...spring break sucks.... so far.
Diane posted this at 11:52 AM.

Wednesday, April 16, 2003

 
i give up.
Diane posted this at 8:37 PM.

Sunday, April 13, 2003

 
SUNDAY today, i had a Junior Miss informational meeting. it looks like i gotta write up a song quickstyles. i'm thinking something real jazzy..? i dunno..but hey, if my voice cracks, i'm so sorry to embarrass you. you dont have to cheer for me at all. i really feel bad because my parents were supposed to go out of state for their anniversary...and it just so happens that Junior Miss is on May 9th...and i think they're just not gonna go to arizona anymore. :( i feel bad. their tickets are non-refundable. bleh! hmm..so there are all these girls who are doing it. i really don't expect to win anything, but i think i'll be something to remember...i've never performed any of my music in front of people...kinda scary...i got the stage fright thing going on. so i dunno. but yeah..it'll be fun.. hmm.. then i came home..boo lakers lost. i went to church..came home... and i guess that's it..oh yeah...took james to wal mart..dude..what a user..just cuz....man.. i'm so pist at you, james. anyways, i think imma go do some hw..bye :D
Diane posted this at 9:30 PM.

 
SATURDAY movies, movies, and more movies. hMm..okay..so Grease, Osmosis Jones, Chamber of Secrets, the Ring.... dang..thas a grip. haha...i slept through..hMm.. Grease, Osmosis Jones, and Chamber of Secrets..lol.. its okay.. i had a fun saturday. jess, jordan, and james came over. and that was that...u know..usual movie days. :D i slept kind of early..like 12:30..ey..that's pretty early. anywho..oh yeah... hMmm...pictures... hahaha... i've never really done it that way, but hey, it works. ;D haha..that was crazy funny. that's all for saturday.
Diane posted this at 9:25 PM.

 
FRIDAY -i was kind of tired, cuz i slept late the night before..wonder why. its all ur fault. jk. :D well anyways, i was really tired at school. so much stuff to do, and i really really really really really really really am sick of school...like really. not the people, not my teachers, not really anything except for SCHOOL WORK.i just hate it so much...maybe because i have TOO MUCH. bleh! hMmm..so anyways, school was a drag..maybe because my brain's pretty exhausted from whatever thinking i actually do. but afterschool, i watched the boys vball game against...john glenn. yay..we won..once again. the game was fun..it was fast. so after, i'm waiting for my brother...waiting waiting and waiting.. man. so i walk home..and look who's sitting on the couch..my brother. haha. punk. its okay though, i think he just got home. i take a shower, get ready...Cheryl does my hair..it took real long, cuz the corn rows.. but it was really cool. thanks cheryl. okay...hMm..i picked up jordan, we scrambled to find a ride..butter took us, and we didn't get to the block until past 9:30. that's okay though. so i walk in...and there were video games everywhere (the cool driving one, of course)...i dont think i'll ever learn how to drive stick. stall. stall. and stall. haha..that would be me. dancing was fun. kinda hot though. no pictures. just a girl group one. i had my handy dandy disposable camera. yes. hehe. hMm..i had fun :D after...alex, jordan, james, and i went to taco bell. we don't know how to order food, cuz i think they got pist off...that was my fault. actually, no, that was james' fault. then....we went to my house and ate. alex left...jess came over, and we all watched grease..tight movie. we all fell asleep..i think the movie ended at 4:30..AM. i'm not sure, but jess turned off the tv, cuz we all passed out on the couches. and that was my Friday... fun :D
Diane posted this at 7:45 PM.